So It Goes

Now every night before you close those eyes,
You kiss the sky goodbye.
Just in case.
To be safe.
Just in case you don’t wake up.
Just in case the world blows up.
Or maybe if your heart decides to stop.
Or maybe if the sky falls on itself.
And what if the ocean drowns.
What if all the planes fall down.
And when the tired buildings get up,
Decide to leave this town.
At least i’ll have said goodbye.

I have not written on this in a long while it seems. I really have forgotten about everything here. It’s currently 12:51am, I’m missing someone that’s a world away. It doesn’t seem real or even plausible that I could let this happen, that either of us could just lose our hearts so easily, but it seems to be there. Now I suffer through achy moments of missing him. It doesn’t seem fair to be dealt this hand, but how else we’re we suppose to discover us? He’s got my everything in his back pocket, and its getting worse as the days drag on. I mean it’s only been 2 days; I feel quite ridiculous sometimes. I feel like shutting down almost. I talked to him briefly yesterday, 3 weeks is going to be extremely too long. At least i hope it is only 3 weeks :/ things could actually work out for him and it may be longer. My heart is confusing my head, and i hate it when it comes to this..